Hillel-rhapsody

What to do to feel better and better and-

I’m on my way to a discussion of imagination at UCSD.  Before I head out, I’d like to convey what I learned from two academics, one a physicist, the second a cultural historian.  Independently, they arrived at a different approach to human thought.  The physicist I call Violet and the cultural historian I call Penelope, Penny, and Pen for reasons I’ll go into in another post.  In brief, they each chose degrees of anonymity because their ideas functioned (not at the root, but) at the DNA of human thought; such thinking didn’t meet with hugs from their colleagues, to put it mildly.

The historian called her central (and overall) approach “making thought consistent with realities of being human”.  Penelope (and Violet) were all about practicality, that is: care, help, and what Violet termed ‘love’—somewhat akin to so-called, “Platonic” Love.  Penelope and Violet were focussed on helping we-humans and helping our planet.

The cultural theorist, Penny, was also a futurist.  She loved to playfully state this: “Well, in the 23rd Century…”. She arrived at her theory and practice (or call it praxis if you prefer, since she actually did her theory). (She talked her walk would be more accurate)…. Penny arrived at her theory in large part through an understanding of her own mind derived from this:  

“Overcoming the aftermath of rape” as she called it.  

Penny had been raped multiple times—and not all by the same man or men.  She called the aftermath of her rapes (a duration of years) as “Walking through death.”  “To return to life, I had no other choice but make my thoughts practical.  Otherwise, I would be dead. I would have died.”

The Central Approach Violet and Penelope used for thought:

1) Make each word’s meaning logically consistent with earth-is-a-process (earth-is-a-unity-of processes).  

2) Repeat.

Their central idea, in brief:

Human words exist in two forms, especially:

A) Words with vastly improved (non-perfect) meanings.  For example, per scientific discovery.  Empiricism (conducting physical experiments, especially) has improved meanings of words such as the ancient word electrum and the word light.  In improving such meanings, often using mathematics as well, electro-magnetism resulted, followed by the quantum revolution, as incipiated by Max Planck and Einstein.  From this work and the efforts of millions—including so many unheralded factory workers, for instance—we have solar panels, laptops, life saving medical devices, digital cameras, and telecommunications.

B) Common words, including words as ordinary as ‘the’, ‘this’, and ‘that’ with as-is, largely unimproved meanings.  Many words remain logically inconsistent with the idea that earth-is-a-unity-of-processes.  Such words include, especially, words of evaluation, since evaluations inform judgements and decisions.  Such evaluative words include the words representing the following concepts:

True

Wrong-bad

Important

Necessary

Permanent

Impossible

Total

Superior

These provide a useful acronym: TWIN PITS.

In Violet’s and Pen’s assessment, such words fight against unity-of-earth.  For instance, the word, impossible, as in “It can’t happen”, relies on the notion that all possibilities are already known and fully understood, that ‘nothing’ escapes us (or the selected in-group).  In other words, words such as impossible often lie to us, distorting thought, blocking options.  Retreating to make-believe of “anything’s possible” can fail even worse.  Such lies can encourage violence, conflict, pain, etc.  We don’t ‘need’ impractical meanings of words.  Such words can be changed.  I can attest fwiw to you—or not—that their thought methodology works.  It decreased cognitive bias.  It increased capacity for arriving at solutions for my life and solutions to problems at work, etc.  Thought-by-earth largely mended so-called ‘me’.  Depression ended, for instance.

Violet recommended not throwing the baby out with the bathwater (an old expression).  In different words, we can retain the upside and jettison the downside…even if it’s ‘impossible’.  As Violet remarked, “It’s impossible” amounts to what?: two words.  Expanding the contraction gives you three: ‘it’, ‘is’, and ‘impossible’.  They didn’t take no for an answer.”  Penny stated something similar and with her characteristic play.  Penny became adamant, on the topic of knowing, stating in playful-defiance: “Do I ‘know’?  I don’t.  That’s patriarchal language.  ‘Knowing’ controls people when you’re the knower.  Instead, I can learn what-works-and-helps ‘me’, persons, and planet.  Help is where it’s at.  That’s care.  Care for self, care for persons, including women, and that care expands to embrace our planet.  If it violates care, don’t do it.”

Both ditched (or nixed) conventional meanings of the concepts of ‘know’, ‘true’, and ‘truth’.  Instead, they worked to celebrate science and work to use rationality in playful and practical ways.  “Play is practical, Hillary…as you’ll discover in the 23rd Century.  Why not begin the 23rd Century today, now?  When you drop the k of know, you gain the n-o-w of now.  When you drop the k of knew, you gain the n-e-w of new.  Why not gain the 23rd Century?”

((That’s not verbatim, but it’s fairly close.  If I recall more precisely, I’ll update.  Penelope’s words functioned unlike the words of anyone I’ve ever met.  She tried to teach me an art of communication.  Mostly, I’m a dip-shit at it.))

Penny took the “don’t throw the baby out” methodology further (and with more precision than I have time for in this post).  She termed it disentanglement.  Often, our words, through common phrases, state {such and such} goes with { this and so}, {this} goes with {that}, as if the two are automatically linked.  I’ll use her example of {rape} goes with {forever harmed}.  

Pen expressed her recovery from years of “walking through death” as this: “What kept me locked within a prison of death amounted to one pervasive idea.  It locked my head.  It said, “You can’t ever feel joy, you can’t have fun, you can’t live a glorious life, because if you do, it’s like saying, “It’s okay to feel good [ever] after being raped.  People need to know how harmful rape is.  And I lived a hell for years as a result.  Did it stop future rapes?  Did it help women?”  “Finally, I realized, I want to help women who have been raped and I’m a woman too.  So I helped myself intensely to set an example and prove by counter-example, that gloriousness can be accomplished: a woman isn’t ever a “raped-woman”…that terminology gives men-who-rape power, the power to turn a woman into a “raped-woman”.”  She explained that “Any definition that interferes with fun, joy, and care isn’t helpful, isn’t practical, is im-practical.  I dropped the im- from im-practical.  I made my definitions practical and that includes converting patriarchal language into whatever-actually-helps-us.”

In addition to her academic responsibilities, Pen devoted much time to two rape-crises centers.  I asked her, “How can you have such energy?”  She said, “I ended patriarchy within.  When you do that, life’s different.”

I’ll continue in the next post.

Love,…because why not?,

Hillary

October 20, 2023

Huge pain exists.  Life’s been getting worse and worse for decades.  What can we do about it?  Politics works only to the extent that people behave.  And behaviors are affected by words.

Consider the city of Elis: 2300 Years ago.  A Greek philosopher named Pyrrho came up with a plan influenced by very early Buddhism: end use of all definitive judgements as a way to end:

Dissatisfaction

Distress of all kinds

Feeling low

Etc.

Doing this, he said, would result in ataraxia, a Greek word suggesting an ongoing experience of ease amid the difficulties and even disasters of life.  I tried his plan.  It worked.  You can do it too.

Famously, mid to late 20th Century psychology was built largely upon ancient Greek and Roman philosophies.  Consider REBT and Cognitive Behavior Therapy for prime examples.  In particular, Stoicism got leveraged by 20th—and now 21st—Century psychology.  The core idea, in an English translation of the words of Epictetus: We’re not disturbed by events but by the views we take of them.

Buddhist philosophy includes the overarching thought: ideas of separation are faulty and lead to harm.  Ideas of separation don’t adhere to how-our-universe-functions.

I took a step, though hardly revolutionary.  I decided to test Buddhist, Hindu, and Mediterranean philosophies of liberation, by changing ideas and meanings that generated stress.  That included the meanings of ordinary words and short phrases.  (Partly, cognitive psychology already does this, so the general approach isn’t new and doesn’t need to be.)  When a meaning—any meaning—clashed with ideas of impermanence or oneness, or resulted in hard and fast judgements of any kind, I’d change it…because it also induced stress!

I began with a short list inspired by my mom.  She often felt plagued by ideas such as:

  • I should have
  • I need to
  • I have to
  • I shouldn’t
  • I can’t

And of course, each of those shoulds, shoudn’ts, have-tos, need-tos, and can’ts felt real to my mom when she thought them.  Only, they also resulted in tons of stress, worry, and even heartache.  They distracted her from her life’s goals.  Each seemed at the time definitive judgements, judgements marked by ideas of:

Important

and

True

So I zapped my have-tos.  I simply showed my mind that I didn’t need them.  My have-tos are not practical.  Very often, I had other choices and options.  Or, there was a variation on what I ‘had-to’ do that worked better.

My have-tos were cognitive noise.  They increased the noise of my thoughts making it hard to hear solutions (so to say).  It was the same with other words and short judgey phrases.

I zapped need-tos and shoulds.   I zapped can’ts. It felt sooooo good!  It popped me out of so much personal yuck, it was amazing.  Later, I even questioned the ‘need’ for ‘important’ and ‘true’. I found that I could think fine without them.  Instead of use of judgey  language—even against self or life—I could get practical, solving problems, improving life, gaining more energy.  I have a ways to go with this process, but it’s been amazing.

Pyrrho sang a new song of life.  We can do same.

Love,

Hillary

December 11, 2021

How my life did a 180, and quick

Summary: When a native English speaker “makes a mistake”, that ‘mistake’ arises in part by a failure of the English language.  When a person hurts, that hurting arises (mostly) from harmful, anti-human words ensconced in patriarchy.  Patriarchal language forms a massive problem.  Problem-solving becomes enhanced as we debug our human languages.

To keep this post from becoming tl;dr (too long; didn’t read), I’ll keep it shorter than I’d like.  The next post will continue where this one leaves off.

I’ll use myself as an example of what can happen. Consider, perhaps, the following rough graph of happiness for my lifetime.  Time goes from left to right.  Feeling better is up; feeling worse is down.  Over my lifetime, happiness declined until I hit bottom. Here’s a pixelly sketch suggesting what happened to my happiness in my early decades of life:

HK-happiness-graph-downward

At that point, I nearly died.  Then, a few months later, I began to debug my copy of English. I began to improve (for myself only) the meanings of English words.  Here’s the happiness graph showing the reversal of fortune once I got serious and debugged meanings of common English words such as ‘worth’:

HK-happiness-graph-complete

The dots indicate a lack of room in the image for the graph’s upside. It was up even after that. However, because some slight stress returned last year…well dang-rabbit, life ain’t perf! Yet it’s lovely. My happiness graph is doin’ fine!! May yours do likewise!

Our Human operating systems, such as English, use as-is words, words we inherited from previous generations.  These are words with mostly as-is meanings.  As-is words have meanings that haven’t been intentionally improved.  Some linguists, philosophers, psychologists, and social critics have pointed out problems with various words (gendered and racist language being perhaps the most noted problems).  Yet, to date, there hasn’t been a cadre of persons working to optimize their own meanings of words.

Enter science.  There can be many ways to discuss the exceptional progress of science.  One of them:

Science upgrades words, improving their meanings.

The success of science has been unprecedented.  Why?  Partly: experimentation.  Galileo tested, for instance.  He encouraged testing of our universe.  In addition, scientists have done amazing work improving the meanings of words and formulating new meanings that also help us.  Galileo’s telescope contributed to our understanding of the word, ‘planet’, for instance.  Without improved meanings of ‘planet’, ‘moon’, ‘star’, and even ‘telescope’, we’d have no ability to expand our horizons beyond earth.

A large stack of kudos to Ibn Al Hassan (Al Hazen), who instigated a first methodical version of what we now term, “the scientific method” five hundred years before Galileo.  Ibn Al Hassan also developed the first scientific treatise on optics (which Galileo relied upon to build the first telescope that could peer at the moons of Jupiter).  We call them the Galilean moons in Galileo’s honor.  We could term science, “The Hassanian Method”(!)

We can emulate Galileo’s testing approach.  We can apply it to day-to-day words.  We can, if we want, rid words of problems—problems built into word meanings during the patriarchal ages.  If a king said to himself, “I’m better. I’m the best person on earth. I’m of the gods!” so what?  Well, it encouraged habits of abuse.  Thinking of ‘other’ people (‘others’, ‘othering’) as ‘lowly’ sets up a condition rife for mistreatment.  “You’re a nothing, you deserve what you get.”  Putting someone ‘down’, making them ‘low’, or even ‘owning’ them constitutes bullying and worse.  It’s verbal abuse.

I’d like to see it end.  That’s what I want (in addition to whatever else increases love-joy-and-peace in this world, along with energy-to-help).

We can upgrade English, the human operating system for native English speakers. Hat tip to Laurel Airica, who has considered words as human software for decades.

English words can be debugged.  Science began the process with words such as ‘see’, ‘vision’, ‘gravity’, and ‘planet’.  Doing the same for common words (that  science also uses) will help science.  More than that, debugging English word-meanings has helped each person to do it thus far.  Even debugging a few words helps hugely in my experience.

What debugging English did for me?

Before debugging English: I’m a wreck.  Life gets worse and worse with no bottom.

After beginning to debug English: My life improves more and more and still more.  Abilities improve as well.  Especially: I became able to also help hurting friends (those interested).  I look forward to the next letter to you.

Is my noggin fundamentally different? Did I have the lone copy of the English language affected by patriarchal harm? No. Each person, thus far of any culture, who has improved meanings of words feels better. Breakthroughs happen and they can be gigantic.

Love,

Hillary

December 1, 2021 (and small edit Dec. 2)

Copyright 2021, Hillary K. (Hillel-rhapsody)

The Trouble with King-speak

In exaltation of yum.

Twenty two years ago today became the most astonishing day of my life.  Something happened so impossible that … words fail.  I think 22 years is long enough.  I’m spilling the beans.

Suddenly, without warning: love!  A love beyond love filled me.  A feeling of warmth filled my chest and went down to my ankles.  It was so far beyond anything I’d experienced.  It was yum.  

By a few days later, that yum filled my body from tip to toes.  But the crazy thing is: it stayed.  It became a non-speaking voice of harmony guiding my actions.

I ascribe nothing supernatural to it.  It feels as natural as it gets.  It said to me: there’s something wonderful about our universe, something hidden that’s spectacular.  I want that for you.

About a month later, another feeling hit me.  It gave me a strength and resilience I never thought possible.  It added to what was already gorgeous, a beauty beyond beauty, a feeling so tender I would have crumpled if it hadn’t also given me power, a power to help hurting friends.  I want that for you if you want it too.  I’ll tell you exactly how to get it.  It involves freedom of thought, feeling, and activity.  If you’re not into full-freedom, forget it.  Don’t follow me: follow the harmony inside.  Change any and every idea to match that resounding freedom.

Sages have stated it for ages.  I met at least one sage: a friend of a friend of a friend.  I call her Violet.  I call her Violet because she didn’t tell me her name.  In a two hour period, she spilled life’s beans to me.  I disagreed with everything she said.  After that two hour bean-spilling, life did what life did.  I mostly ignored her statements.  One thing stuck especially: “Live from love, Hillary!  That’s your ticket to freedom!”  I couldn’t shake the idea, though I fought against it vehemently.

Now you.  You can do something different that (very nearly nobody) talks about today: improve the English language!  Improving the English language—down to the meanings of words—frees you, only you.  It’s each person freeing ‘self’.  It’s undoing patriarchy from within.

We’ve each been exposed to the thinking of ancient kings.  Ancient kings ‘knew’ they were gods, or pretended such.  Or, they claimed to be representatives of gods or the prime local god.  The upshot?  Everything the local king stated was completely true, important, right, and good.  It was necessary to agree.  If you valued your intact body at least…  

Kings stated ‘the’ ‘truth’.  Each local king was utterly ‘right’.  Over time, this pattern of thought by kings resulted in slavery, subjection of women, full enslavement of women by ‘husbands’, etc.  Men owned women and children.  Kings owned everyone.  Today, some people speak of ‘owning’ someone or some group...as if that’s helpful.

Kings placed people on verbal ladders, with kings ‘on’ ‘top’.  Kings were ‘high’ (“high and mighty”).  Other people were pushed ‘low’ and made ‘lowly’.  Kings levitated in their own minds, becoming ‘superior’ to ‘everybody’.  Even though kings didn’t ‘know’ everyone, each local king (or emperor) ‘knew’ “I am better.”.  

“I am the best.  I am above everybody.”  

That’s king-speak, for instance.  

Kings made a mess of the languages they spoke.  We live with the aftermath of that mess today.  The yuck of life descends from ancient kings and their ilk.  That includes clergy who set themselves up as ‘better’ than ‘everyone’ ‘else’.  That can be a hypothesis—an hypothesis if you’d rather.

Kings cast a spell on humanity.  That spell includes these words and ideas:

  • True (know)
  • Wrong-bad (shouldn’t, should)
  • Important
  • Necessary (need, need-to, have-to)

These four (especially) have ruled, setting down rules of thought and judgement-against-us.

Four more concepts make matters worse, locking in pain and sorrow, magnifying struggle, and enforcing a lack of help from language.

  • Permanent (forever, always, never)
  • Impossible (can’t)
  • Total (all, nothing, everybody, nobody…)
  • Superior

In the ancient world, various sages pointed out problems with these sorts of words and concepts.  It’s not that we ‘shouldn’t’ use concepts emphasized by ancient kings: the idea of ‘shouldn’t’ forms part of the problem of human disharmony.  It’s not that we ‘need-to’ think differently: we can if we so choose.  It’s not ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’ to continue to think using these king-approved ways of thinking.  Ideas of ‘bad’ and ‘wrong’ have been used to harm persons for centuries.

“When patriarchy started” hardly impacts this topic.  Yes, it may be useful to have a sense of it.  My sense (though, like everything I state forms merely a thought and opinion): patriarchy bubbled forth especially around 4000 BCE and became a serious deal (in parts) by 3000 BCE.  If you prefer to say 3000 BC, I’m fine with that also.  I’m interested in whatever actually reduces pain and increases the pleasures of love-joy-tranquility-with-energy.  Or call it love-joy-peace-energy instead.  I’m not interested in equanimity that sits around.  I enjoy élan, throwing myself energetically into life’s beauty.  Love is that beauty.  Joy is that beauty.  Energy-of-life (élan vitale) is that beauty!

What about you?  Why do I write these things today?  When a person falls into the Universe’s Yum Factory, there’s little that remains to do but assist where assistance is desired.  I assist.  I feel far too much yum-feeling, see far too much beauty (visual yum) to ‘need-to’ ‘get’ things for myself.  And to think that ‘I’ somehow ‘deserve’ anything (or don’t deserve yum) compounds patriarchy and distracts from why we’re all here.  And if there’s no reason for our existence, let’s make one:

  • Love, increasing love.
  • Increasing energy and capability.
  • Joy.
  • Tender affection for everyone.

Yes, shiitake happens.  So what?  No person—upon sufficient reflection—is ‘responsible’ for yuck.  We each learned a language full of error and harm-to-us-humans.  King-speak impelled that yuck, the ick of human life.  Kings divided and conquered.  That’s a prime hint.  Concepts of division and dominance harm us.  There’s no ‘us’ and ‘them’—we’re all of one planet.  We’re earth.

Thought-by-we’re-earth (thinking in terms of love and oneness): that unifies. It makes us whole.  Thought by oneness-of-universe: that helps us as well!  Rethinking words in the sage-tested ways of non-hubris and non-separation works and helps.  I don’t ‘know’ anything.  Instead of ‘knowing’, I can work to uncover ways that help.

Let’s do it.  Please share thoughts.  What have you found to generate harmony?  How can we have a conversation?  What would you like?  What are your deepest wishes in life?  I don’t presume to ‘know’ answers.  The concept of ‘know’ hurt me.

I’m for yum-for-all-persons.  I call it Love.

Love,

Hillary

November 29-30, 2021

Love!  What could be more suited to undoing patriarchy than love?  Joy perhaps?  A lovingjoy, all-one-word, that lives to help self, persons, and earth?

I was helped.  I received help and I’d like to pay it forward, yet I require your help to do it.  Here’s my account in very brief:  

After years of increasing depression and stress, I was at the last threads of my rope.  A very kind person’s words came back to me.  I call her Violet.  Using her approach, I felt better and better and life went better.  Then it opened up wildly.

It came down to this: overcoming patriarchal habits of division and control encoded into meanings of common words.  A few of my friends have done something similar.    

But there’s a problem: I don’t have any idea how the method that helped me so hugely can be broadly accessible.  It amounts to prioritizing love-joy-peace-energy (I call it élan) instead of words.  It’s taking the division and dominance out of ordinary meanings of words.  In that respect, it has affinity with non-violent communication.

I once considered myself worse than worthless, with a negative sense of worth.  Finally, I decided the only way I could end depression would involve getting over the meaning of ‘worth’, along with ‘superior’, ‘inferior’, and related ideas that put people—and myself—‘low’.  The method worked beautifully and exit-from-depression became rapid.  In ten weeks, over ten years of increasing funk ended for good.  That was way past 20 years ago.  I haven’t had a down day since though I still cry at movies.

I’ve worked to simplify the process.  I’d like you to simplify the process even more so it can work for more people.  What’s the minimum viable method that works?  I don’t have the answer.  Can you try it and give advice?  I’d be grateful.

The jist: So far, each time a person redefines a concept away from patriarchal leanings, that person has felt better.  Each effort’s incremental and (so far) appears to provide sustainable benefit.  Thus far, results have been far faster than yoga or meditation and work beautifully in combination with yoga, meditation, or both.

Will you consider helping?  I don’t presume to ‘know’ ‘answers’ either.  I don’t have answers.  I’ve come to this community to learn and ask for help.  Some absurdities seem wild to me: even words as innocuous as ‘the’ limited my life and my choices.  Overcoming ‘the’ has helped me a ton!  I’d like such for you if you’d like it too.  More than that, you yourself can find more streamlined, effective, powerful ways to both do the process and how to convey it.  I’d like this to be a group effort, because only a group effort works!

Love,

Hillary

p.s. In my experience, fun helps.  Good natured sharing and shared laughter about the absurdities of life help us.  I wish I had a joke to say, but-

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